As I looked ahead to May, my mind and heart felt an incredible and unmistakable sense of beautiful unfolding … of LIFE! It was as if a curtain was lifted – April, which had been so heavy and dark with tests and unknowns and waiting and doctor appointments and agonizing decisions, was wrapping up. And May would be ushering in all kinds of goodness. I knew it deep inside.
This strong, lovely sense in my heart may have taken root in a conversation toward the end of April.
The words came tucked in to a conversation full of catching up and family updates.
I am so “lucky”, and am “treated” so well, to get the hours I get on my Wednesday afternoons, she said.
I nodded and we hung up the phone and I felt that sense of dissonance in my heart. Why didn’t those words settle right in my heart?
2016 has been rough.
I hear people sharing that sentiment in reference to the political craziness that has been this year and for sure, I agree. But that’s just been the icing on the cake for the rest of the HARD that this year has been in my world. 🙂 I don’t know that I’ve *ever before welcomed the coming of a new year with such jubilation! Read more
Almost 7 months since finishing chemo,
nearly 5 months since surgery,
and over a month since the last radiation.
I have been in a groove, moving through radiation every morning, then jumping in to the daily groove of juggling the many balls that is my life. I have been eyeing the end date of radiation, counting down, and thinking through next steps to finish out conventional treatment.
I decided to keep my appointment with my local oncologist last week, which typically precedes the next day’s infusion of herceptin Read more