As I looked ahead to May, my mind and heart felt an incredible and unmistakable sense of beautiful unfolding … of LIFE! It was as if a curtain was lifted – April, which had been so heavy and dark with tests and unknowns and waiting and doctor appointments and agonizing decisions, was wrapping up. And May would be ushering in all kinds of goodness. I knew it deep inside.
This strong, lovely sense in my heart may have taken root in a conversation toward the end of April.
Oh, these words … a balm to heart and mind yesterday.
I spoke on the phone with my cherished and wise integrated oncologist about recent lab results from an appointment with my naturopath. (According to the tests that were done, I “have” Hashimoto’s – what??)
The words came tucked in to a conversation full of catching up and family updates.
I am so “lucky”, and am “treated” so well, to get the hours I get on my Wednesday afternoons, she said.
I nodded and we hung up the phone and I felt that sense of dissonance in my heart. Why didn’t those words settle right in my heart?
I’m sitting outside, soaking in the glorious gift of this cold but beautiful clear blue sky bright sunshine afternoon … my boys are both napping after more than a week of sharing a terrible bug that has them both pretty wiped out.
2016 has been rough.
I hear people sharing that sentiment in reference to the political craziness that has been this year and for sure, I agree. But that’s just been the icing on the cake for the rest of the HARD that this year has been in my world. 🙂 I don’t know that I’ve *ever before welcomed the coming of a new year with such jubilation! Read more
Almost 7 months since finishing chemo,
nearly 5 months since surgery,
and over a month since the last radiation.
It was after 8 pm the other night, and a snack sounded really good. Nothing unhealthy, necessarily, but something to munch on.
And in that moment, I remembered my plan and the “loss” seemed small compare to the great gain I was choosing.
“You’ll get really good at listening to your body.”
those words shared from the kind and gentle heart of my acupuncturist last spring, early in my journey, continue to echo in my mind.
And she was right.
I realized last week that I have greater clarity, greater certainty about my body Read more