What I’m eating these days

I feel a true release from the striving; from the desperation of wanting to make the best choices and not being entirely sure; from searching and reading and second-guessing my protocol.

I feel freedom.

Because here is what I know for sure, today: our bodies are all unique. There truly is not a one-size-fits-all protocol that is the best one for everyone. There is incredible, ample research and information supporting a plant-based diet; equally compelling and ample information for a ketogenic approach. I have read and studied and know that there are people who have experienced incredible healing and wellness from both of those paths … and from others.

We have the deep gift and profound opportunity to become really good at listening to our own bodies … to discerning and paying close attention, and from that place of attentive love, we step boldly and joyfully into the best choices for us.

With love and gratitude, not fear.

I’ve learned by quieting and listening, that there are some foods my body doesn’t respond well to, and that do not build healing and strength. And so, I choose each day to not eat those things … and experience the steadiness and well-being that comes from those choices.

I see a clear vision of my strong, beautiful, healed body and am each day, walking toward that vision. And each day, there is grace for imperfection … yet, I am drawn less and less to the things that don’t make my body feel good.

I see the gift of continuing to learn … not from a place of pressure or fear, but because I am living in this one body, and have the deep opportunity to steward it well, each day. And so, I will always have my eyes open wide to emerging literature and research, and will incorporate that which supports my body’s healing and wellness, for the rest of my life. And as my body continues to heal and change, I will continue to listen and make adjustments to my protocol as I feel led.

These days, here is what this looks like:

  • An overnight fast, for 13 hours at minimum … I aim for more, and often go 14 or 15 hours
  • Lemon juice squeezed in room temperature water first thing in the morning
  • Eggs & greens sauteed for breakfast
  • Lunch and dinner are some combination of organic animal protein (typically ground beef or chicken), good fats (avocado, coconut oil, avocado oil mayo, etc), a salad or cooked veggies.
  • Little to no grains
  • No sugar or gluten
  • Coffee, of course! 2-3 cups a day, with an amazing creamer called Nutpod (an almond and coconut milk blend)
  • Occasional sweet treats are some type of “fat bomb” – yesterday I melted equal parts coconut oil and almond butter, then added some cocoa powder and vanilla protein powder, and froze.
  • Fruits occasionally: berries, apples, etc.
  • I feel best when i stop eating fully at dinner, which we eat at 6pm.

Each day, we have the gift of moving and breathing and living in these amazing bodies that God has given us … oh, that I will steward that gift well, and embrace the challenge and opportunity to daily, nourish my body well.


horse road


As I looked ahead to May, my mind and heart felt an incredible and unmistakable sense of beautiful unfolding … of LIFE! It was as if a curtain was lifted – April, which had been so heavy and dark with tests and unknowns and waiting and doctor appointments and agonizing decisions, was wrapping up. And May would be ushering in all kinds of goodness. I knew it deep inside.

This strong, lovely sense in my heart may have taken root in a conversation toward the end of April.

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The steady march of excruciatingly difficult decisions



From the first moment after The Call came on January 8, 2016  – after I caught my breath and for every breath I’ve taken since, I’ve known for sure: this is my body and my healing path that I will walk out.  I will need to study and pray and seek and learn and be stretched and be torn and seek second and third opinions and ultimately, I will have to

make the hard decision.

I can look back over the last fifteen months and see, as if with mile markers in the road, the extraordinarily difficult decisions I made. Each one was a pivot, that shifted the course of my treatment and my life.

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my yoga practice



I was just reminded how deeply refreshing my yoga practice can be.

In the midst of the late afternoon hustle at home and feeling scattered and unsettled, I decided to tuck away in my room and do the yoga that I’ve been putting on the back burner all week.

I’m so glad that I did.

As I moved through the motions, the fresh spring air from the opened windows blew in, and I was literally serenaded with the songs of the sweet birds outside my window.

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Post 2 - a friend to me


I was on the phone with my mom tonight, sharing (rapturously) about my time at the sauna today. She knows, and heard again this evening, just how powerful and impactful and refreshing my weekly sauna time has become.

One of the absolute highlights of my week, I told her. Every time I leave, I feel energized and nourished in ways I couldn’t have expected. Read more